Wednesday, September 29, 2010

I think I found my mantra

I've been having a huge life crisis the past year or so, full of panic attacks about growing older and the things that have passed me by. I've been incredibly blessed, but I feel like so much of my life has just HAPPENED to me, instead of me charting a course and going for my goals.

So I was hungry tonight and about to get up and say "fuck it" and I realized: this is something I can take control over. This is a course I can chart for myself. I can do this.

And I found my "before" picture (watching a friend's baby the other day):

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OMG. I'm not trying to beat up on myself, but OMG. Fucking ridiculous.
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2 comments:

  1. KaraSeptember 30, 2010 at 7:09 AM

    You're so right Leah. We have the CHOICE to make changes and I'm doing it! And you are too!

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  2. AnonymousSeptember 30, 2010 at 10:45 AM

    Girl you need to put that before picture up in places you can pull it out when you get the "fuck it" urge. I hate looking at pics of myself or worse seeing my relfection in a window. But not seeing myself that way also enables me to make ZERO change because it reinforces my denial that I'm a fatass.

    Miche

    I really fucked up yesterday after a really bad morning i succombed to the tempation of chocolate covered donuts and cappuchino. then the fuck it attitude continued the rest of the day because I believed that I needed my "comfort food". Trying to get back in the saddle today as I'm stuck at home in this fucking rain and wind disaster that is hitting the coast.

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